About me...life...experience..

To be continued....

2008-07-07T22:09:00.005+08:00

Can I continue like tomorrow maybe..?hehe. Ada g pics yg i need to upload masa kami d Batang Duri..n post on my brother's wedding...pas tu what I'm up to masani hehehe...bsuk ahhhh...heh!

Outward Bound Temburong (24th May 2008 - 29th May 2008)

2008-07-07T21:44:00.006+08:00

In the boat, otw to Bangar

Me and Wanie

Me, Ayu, Zai, Nins and Amal (L-R)

Arrived in Bangar

Outward Bound Centre (tmpat kayak store)

updates...

2008-07-07T19:43:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates..well i must say, these few months had been packed with so so so many events and activities. many of u might wonder what was the news yg i was berabisly excited kan inform kamu rite..?rite....ok here goes...

I was selected as one of the 13 candidates for the RBA Aircraft Engineering Apprentice Scheme of Intake 26. After all the written tests and interview that I went through, can't believe that I actually got through. Parents were called for briefing and stuff cos we were going to be sent to Perth, Scotland at the Air Service Training for 2 years. Sounds exciting right? I was damn excited at that time..! We have to go through several med-checkups where i was asked to have my wisdom teeth extraction(gilaaaaa!!!)before going to Scotland pasal if i dont do it, dsana aku suffer. I have to undergo an operation to extract 4 of them,yes! real operation,masuk arah operating theatre pa,just bcos of my 4 teeth!ha! and and..remember my last post..?It was the MIB interview that we have to attend!hahaha.I managed to pass both! and woohooo!! Classes and briefings for weeks..As for the team building, guess mana kami kana antar nah?? OUTWARD BOUND TEMBURONG for 6 DAYS 5 NIGHTS!! ill post on that later ah..

But....at the end of last month I rejected the offer...I KNOW!! u might say membuang tuah jua anak ani..but i have my reasons okkkkk...there's something that im not confident with...if u wanna know nantith ku gtau,malas ku expose kan disini hehe. after all that i went through aku reject in the end. my mates were like crying:'( they said i dont love them! noooo, it's just that this is my future and i need to decide wisely..they didnt know what i went through in UBD you see cos i hide it from them..kira aku jara, i dont want to just grab this chance without thinking bnar2..i talked to my family, my cousins and frens and otherssss....after that baru ku buat my decision so it's not a one day decision-making ok? my flights, my ticket smua udah ready but aku mesti pikir abis..

nervous ku masa kan jumpa d VP, but after jumpa ia n explained my reasons n him jua trying to persuade me to take back my words hehe but still aku tetap wif my decision, he cudnt push me jua so yes smuanya beres..if i were still in the scheme, my flight was on saturday, 21st of june hari atu which was a day before my brother punya majlis bersanding!!!! nda jua sangka tu ah..awal2 kana inform d flight would be in august sekali nah end of june..! o well...to d rest of my mates..WANI, AYU, AMAL, ZAI, NINS, SUFRI, MALEK, KHALID, HAMZI ZEBRA (inside joke, jgn marah bro haha woot!), ZUL, MIRUL & BOS, gud luck in ur studies n remember masa exam mesti dapat 75% n above,abislah kamu hahaha! but i noe u guys can do it wahai adiks adiks kuuuu, auuuu, im d eldest of all hahaha, au kakaaaaaaa hahaha. ill always remember masa2 kitani d temburong...*sob*sob*...i love kamu~~

Ok....ok(>_<)...wheeeee!!!

2008-05-08T23:20:00.002+08:00

Phewwwww!! I feel relieved now...at last!!ha! can't waitttttt....(^_^)

Wish me Luck..

2008-05-07T18:49:00.001+08:00

wish me the best of luck for tomorrow..:)

I'm Back...................againnnnnn

2008-04-22T11:05:00.002+08:00

hi ppl, my last post was like 7 months ago hehe..im on hiatus for such a loooongggggg time ey? well, so many things happened though,inda terasa it has been 8 months sudah since d "thing"..

welll, not much to say though for now, butttttt........i might SURPRISE u guys with a bigggggiee news..:) sorryyy, no clues or whatsoever nyahahahaha...just stay tuneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...kekekeke

hugs and kisses..

kamuuuuu!Shayne Ward! HAWTTTTTTT!!!!

2007-09-12T21:15:00.000+08:00

O MY GawdddD!!! He's so HAWTTTTTTTT!!! hehe, who's fav line ni ahhh? *winks* p yesssss hot hot hot!!! his new single ni, nama lagunya -->>If that's ok with you...oooo,u're asking me..?? of course!! anythangggggg, smuanya A OKKKKKKKKKKK!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! aaaa,talurku ulih laki2 aniii!! Tluannn hengsemmmmm!!

waaaaaaa, merah pipi ku masa aniiii! malu ku ah liat video clip nya balik2 ia liat arah aku ahhh *melttttttttttttttttttt* hehe. aku tau aku perasannnnn:P aku perasankah? aku punya suka lahhhh!=p my gawdddd, both my ears merahHHH!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!aku sukaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (o_O)

First time kana tagged!!~~~

2007-08-27T17:53:00.001+08:00

Tagged by Dazzling

1. Tell us your name:
Fid

2. Three things about yourself:
1)flush cheeks(bukan pasal malu haha,andang kejadiannn~~)
2)chubby
3)lurvveee coloured contact lens:P

3. What’s in your playlist:
Luluh from Samsons

4. Your favourite music:
Anything as long as nda sakit tinga ku mendangar..ranging from slow , rock to guyang2 punggung songs *kucing garong* LOL

5. Favourite guilty pleasure:
Shopping!

6. Favourite food:
Mom's home cooking *sama kitani Zat;)*

7. Define love:
Love....the feeling of caring, sayang-ing, susahati-ing, becali-ing, comfort (pokoknya anything u feel that makes u terasa so connected to that person) and you panicked everytime something bad happened to them or to a particular person. and u feel happy jua when they're happy;)

8. Define sex:
Sex kah..? ummm kalau arah borang sex refer to ur gender plg p ada plg other definition for this which i positively think that kamu tau! c'mon we're adults enough to know the definition hehe..

9. Any celebrity crushes?:
Johnny Depp *kambang bulu kuuu*

10. The last person you hugged:
My mama..

11. The last person you talked to:
My mama..

12. The last time you cried:
Just a few minutes ago..*wipe tears*

13. The last time you had sex:
Au tadi kali ku had sex nah iatah ku menangis atu kali??LOL

14. The last time you made out:
Uh-huh >_<

15. The last person you dated:
The guy who is getting a new haircut at the moment hehe*auwww miss himmm*

16. The last time you went out:
Umm tadii..?

17. What’s on your mind now?:
The last person i dated *wink*

18. What’s bothering you?:
Refer to my post below..

19. This year’s resolutions:
Get a better life! Have to work extra hard this year..show people i'm not weak

20. Your MSN nick:
whyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

21. What’s your MSN nick about?:
Again, refer to the posts below..

22. The people you miss the most:
My friends......*sob*

23. Current mood:
Undescribable..

24. What are you thinking?:
How to move on...

25. Best childhood memory:
When i have all my toys around me and talking to imaginary friend..LOL i'm weird!

26. 3 of your biggest fears:
1)Failure
2)Being hurt
3)Cockr****(i dun wanna type the full word eeeeeeeeeee)

27. Who do you love?:
My family, my friends*sobs* and of course the last person i dated;)

28. 3 of the things you hate:
1)BETRAYER!!
2)LIAR!!
3)BACKSTABBERS!

29. Do you blog?:
uh-huh..nda kaliiii???!

30. Tag 5 people:
1)Eechut
2)Dir
3)Og
4)Cintaislove
5)Idut

Betrayed.......X_X

2007-08-27T16:12:00.000+08:00

hermmmmmmm..yes!betrayed!!!

it's just that i really realllyyy dont understand how could someone with such a highhhh position can even think of doing such thing???

kamu tau right about my urmmm u knowww..ok exactly 1 week ago, i have passed an appeal letter to the VC through the D. (i dont want to mention d full name lah ahhh, i think you know what i mean). so i was told that the result would be out in 2 days time and ya after two days i called to the admission and the admission said that they were not INFORMED about me..and they passed me to the Examination Section and i have to ask them the same thing and yep they said that they too were not informed to call me or anything..i said to my self, well okkk, be patient be patient,maybe i should give them a call on Saturday, so as to give them enough SPACE and TIME to sort this thing out. btw, mind you that i have to call MANYYY MANYYYYY times till they picked up the b*oo*y phone! u should consider yourself LUCKY if u manage to talk to them after a few rings *roll eyes*

and sooo, yessss, i called them again on saturday. and stilllll~~not luckyyyy~~i mean this time, very not the luckyyyy okk~ the admission people didnt even bother to pick up the phone and they even have the heart to make the line busy! i knew they purposely did that cos it was ringing at first then busy.apatah tuuuu?? macam sampai hati juaaaa~~so i tried calling the FOS admin. atu baru ku puji nahh~ after a few rings, tarus angkat*THUMBS UP* this wasnt my first time calling them. setiap kali call, msti drg angkat after a few rings. mun durang atuuuu~~*jaling2 keatas* alum lagi tah mengangkat~~sorry laaaa~~

back to the alkisah~~even the F admin pun inda tau what was the outcome of my appeal letter cos they didnt receive anything from the admission nor the examination section;( i feel sooo neglected~~;( mcam did they really antar my appeal letter to the VC?? they asked whether i have called the admission and i said that they didnt even bother to pick up the phone bah~ she was like "hmm,andangnya durang atu,andang pyah sdikit.." see! since inda puas hati, i immediately called Ms R and asked for her help, like how am i supposed to know the result of my appeal. she offered to call the admission and the examination section (thank youuuu:)) since she's one of the lecturers, maybe..just maybe..she can kurik some information on my appeal ani. then she told me that she managed to call the admission ppl(like, at lassttttt!)tapinya masih lagi they didnt know about my appeal atu,no one informed them or anything! WHATTTT????? then Ms R called (mcm bnyak jua pasal call mengcall aniii~~shisshhh)the AR to ask about the procedure. SURPRISINGLY~~ia nda tau about my appeal letter..hmmmm..mcm INDA IA TAUUU sal NADA URG INFORM IA~~au wahhh so where the he** is my appeal letter kan?? she said that normally, the letter will go through her first before tampat lain*jaling2 lagi keatas* so it seems like the DD mcm inda forward my letter tah tu kan usulnya~~*btw 2 kamu yg kan ingin tau pa makna di sebalik letters yg ku buat atu,tanya ja ah* how could he do that?? tapi i cant confirmed yg he really didnt forward my letter right~~?

and so todayy, my mama and me went to see the AR to let her know my situation. ive printed a new letter lagi, now for the Examination Section cc AR. we've waited for like 10 min then she came. so went in and baru explained to her about my situation and she asked me to whom did i give the letter to last week? i told her it was the DD and DrJ had even signed the letter to mention that he has no objection for me to appeal. she asked for the copy of the letter and nasibbb~ i was smart enough (hehehe,kambangg~) to re-print a copy of the letter but unfortunately without DrJ's recommendation..:(like how am i supposed to make a copy since he signed it and the DD tarus take it..? but at least~~it shows my effort by re-printing it~~

then~~macam tuhan atu kali kan mliat kan arah kami kali bah ah~the DD went in~macam surprised jua ia to see us in the room.then the AR asked him about my letter like did he forward it kah..and u kNOW WHAT??? he was reallllyyyyyyyyy panickinggggg and started to blab things which were realyyyyy realllyyyy~~~ irrelevant!banar! try ask my mama if you dont believe me, she was with me in the room. you can actually see if a person atu reallly feels guilty kann~ his eyes showed everythanggggg~~~ i was really angry at that time. i feel betrayed~ btrayed by someone whom i respected and trusted all this while;( how could he..?:"( he pretended like he didnt remember receiving my letter, like helloo!!! it was just a week agooo! i dont think they receive tons of appeal letters in a week! pas tu ingat tia nya! whatt??? he was asking so manyy irrelevant question to me~~mcam adakah patut ia tanya aku "pernah sudah ko buat physics maybe in your first year kah pakah~~?" apa?????? macam ummm nooo >_< inside i was like, hello!!aku buat CS kali ahh!n my minor was uummm...maths..??so...bhapa ku sibuk2 belajar physics....????*slaps forehead* macam inda tantu cakapnya! and he even mentioned sal i should transferred to BSc Ed majoring in maths and minor CS! *adakah such program offered?ed?maths and cs?*blink blink* the AR tarus ckap adakan tu ..?? astahhhhhhh!napakan tu kamu??*slaps forehead hard*arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! and one more thing ah i am not even eligible to transfer to any other program...*baca letter before cakap pa2 sal transferring*

and yadayadayadaaaa~~the AR told me that she'll contact me on anything. she told me the chance of getting back to continue my course is very slimmm~~but inda pa2 lah,berserah arah tuhan,if rezeki ku dsini alhamdulillah~~tapi if inda, trima ja~~;( i have done my part, i dont wanna leave the place just like that as if i like being terminated. i wanna fight for a place in there..but if such effort pun tapi kalau ada urang yg block your effort...macamana..? again..i leave the matters to Allah~~

after the meeting, i went to the examination section to request a copy of my results' transcript..just preparing saja..they told me i have to make the payment *au we have to pay $5 for the transcript* arah finance. and due to the convo thingy they have moved the finance counter temporarily to the hall so as to ease the graduates to make payment and collect their gowns..just for $5, i have to walk to the hall! kpisan eh! but what to do, bersusah2 ja lu bersenang2 kemudian*esehhh!phewittt!* then went back to the Examination section minta print..at the same time, the graduates pun ada to collect their results kah pakah..*sighhh*knapalah dugaan ku kali ani barat banar..?;'( they were going around bringing their gown and complaining to each other about how barat the gowns were..ada tia this lady told her friend "ko pindik atu kali iatah ko keberatan!mayb gravity pull kali wah!"and they laughed. i was smiling jua ada kah sibuk2 kan cakap sal gravity pull tyme2 cmatu,shishh some people ;p siuk ah, they were so happy cos they are going to graduate on the 11th and here i am, asking for the transcript not because i finished my studies but because i was terminated...;'( mannnnn, it was so hard for me to stand tadi looking at them so happy but aku...?*heads up and jalan*

and at exactly 4.01 pm, the AR called me..she has discussed with the D and advised me to change to another program cos no matter what i am not allowed to go back to CS..i will still need to write another appeal letter if i want to transfer..kamu, im tired..i dont think i can do this anymore~~changing to a new course and start from the beginning..? i'm gonna give Ms R a call and ask for her advice...i want kamu punya opinion as well ah~ wat u think i should do~ help me..ok?

till then....see kamu..*wave wave*

This is not the end......

2007-08-22T19:26:00.000+08:00

hi frens...;')

i do believe that now most of u knew d whole story rite..? i still cant believe that it actually happened to me..but yes,i, as one of His creations must accept this fact..it's fate and i do believe everything happens for a reason...

i'd received d letter on last saturday 18/8...class finished at 5pm and i went straight to home...I actually felt something was gonna happen that day since morning but i ignored the feeling cos i didnt wanna think too much. The last class for the day was Spanish and it was our first class..didnt know that the first Spanish class i attended would be my last one as well..;'( the four of us was eager to learn and by the next class we should be ready with our own spanish names..i know someone was gonna name herself Anastacia;p, au bah Liyana, i wont take ur name jua kali ah, takut lagi tu, pkirnya i wanna ambil d name;p and if i were to take that name fren, u know i wont be able to... and another wanted to name herself as something which means stars..i couldnt recall ah d nama zat hehe..and d other fren came up with this "smart" idea kan suruh me naming myself as sumthing bonita..which means pa nah kamu?? "Beautiful Princess"! yessss,imagine tah dr paolo suruh introduce ur spanish names in front of d class, kalinya my turn.."my spanish name is .... bonita which means Beautiful princess!!"...THOING! i wonder how would d class react ah...kamu tah saja, wat d u think? ada kali eh gugur dari krusi heeehee...and we've learned d ELA ALPHABETO ESPANOL---The Spanish Alphabets..it was fun but zat, like dr paolo said "do not overdo the pronunciation";p mannn, im gonna miss that class..at least it helps to release stress..

There were many signs actually before i knew the "news". i've only realized it after i got the letter..Liyana and i was discussing on bio computation's assignment dat morning and she told me that only 5 of us left since the others decided to drop it. and she was like.."eh cana tu ah, since kitani 5 urg saja tinggal, then how are we supposed to divide ourselves into groups of two persons each?" i said "au ah, cana tu ah?" and she spontaneously replied, "tiga dua kali nah? p ko msti sama aku tu,jgn ko ah" and we laughed..and now Liyana, dont worry, only 4 persons left masani so u wont have to think hard how to actually divide the groups;p So so sorry fren...i broke my promise to be ur partner..i would love to be ur partner but i just cant..;'(my chest feel so heavy now and the "candy box" that we planned to, with the mini rubbish bin..buat ah, msti plg selalu check stock tu.and oh ya,dont forget the "lock".u noe what i mean;p

Another sign was when Yas came in after the Internet application class..he wanted to use a computer in the Unix Lab..and since each computer is dedicated to each of us who is taking the course, so he needed to ask one of us to log in everytime he wanted to use any of our computers..he didnt take that course hence the problem i remembered he was complaining sal he's d only 1 yg nada kana bagi computer..cian Yas~~hehe..and he said to me, "I need someone's root to log in p pyah jua" and i was like "au ah yas,cana tu ah..?" seee,it was a sign.. Yas, i've told eun to give u my root so that u can log in to mine, and now here i officially announce that "she" is yours;')jaga ia baik2 ah yasmi..sdih ku...;(

My parents wasnt acting normal that evening when i came back from Uni.like they were avoiding from looking into my "purple eyes"(contact lens Suria hehe)rite after i had my dinner, my babah called me and started to say things bebunga-bunga..and at that instance,i knew that something was not right and that "something" is not good..he then handed over the letter and it says URUSAN KERAJAAN KEBAWAH DULI..i opened it and there it was, the subject in BOLD.
I couldnt think rite when i read d letter..my eyes watered d moment i saw the word..TERMINATIONthen i acted..umm i dont know..i remembered i was screaming, i was on the floor..and the rest..only my family knows..

I could see that all my dreams shattered..my world turned black, so pitch black..I dont know where to go! I just dont know..;( how can they be so cruel to do this in my final year and it was because of only one basic course?? whyyyy? why???? i am so stressful;( drg inda kesiankan aku....?inda kah...?;'( i know that it is a regulation but arent rules are meant to be broken..? it's like a total deadlock to me...im trapped;'(

Well ppl, that's how life is rite? sometimes we're on top and sometimes d bawah..I've read ur blogs and all the poems, posts and comments..ur posts are the most beautiful thing that i have ever read;') honestly, i cant write beautiful poems or sumting similar, doesnt mean i dun love u guys but all of u do mean something to me...and it is very SPECIAL....all of u are special...really;'( i really miss kamu...mannnn im crying now,i cant stop it...;'((( and now we're far apart, p jgn lupakan aku ah...;'(u're all dat i have apart from my family n my special one..pls jgn lupakan aku ah..forgive me for all the wrongdoings yg pernah aku buat o mayb joke yg teover that may have hurt ur feelings..i wanted to hug u gals nanti;( guys cannot ah;p u ppl are the best ppl, the best frens that a person can have..it's difficult to find ppl mcm kamu..honestly..rmember ada drg pernah ckap yg how come kitani rapat as one class cos drg last time mcm bergroup-group in a class..? dats wat makes us special..and im very glad, so thankful that I am surrounded by very special bunch..;')i reaaallyyyyy miss u frens wahhhh...hari hari ku ingatkan kamu;'(msti ku nangis kalau ingat kamu...i dun have anyone here mcm kamu...u noe i feel so lonely here..my family da plg..p still i feel lonely..barutah aku pernah rasa sunyi bnar2..sal kamu nada...;'((((i wont tukar our frenship wif any barng pun..walaupun diamond kah platinum kah, p marak plg mata tu ah mliat diamond shining shining;')kamuuuu, i cant stop cryingggg;'((((

To eunice...ure d closest to me...like pa urg selalu ckap..every pertemuan mesti da perpisahan rite..?and this is what happening to us..;'((i've read ur blog tadi n u r also in difficulties rite..eun,dugaan ni..apapun, we need to xcept it kan..it'll make us stronger..trust me ok? 5 yrs is not bad..unlike me..yg nda kana bagi chance..ndaja..kan..? i noe kalau bulih kan ko pajal (ko andangnya pemajal ;p) p sumtymes it's better to listen to drg kan...sabar saja..take this as a challenge,i noe u can do it..dont ever give up..eun inda kitni smpat mengabiskan anime yg kuar darah dari idungnya ah;( no more hanging out in my room mcm byasa..u noe pa g ku ingat..?remember last thursday, u said u wanted to bring extra shirt and sluar next tyme u go to hostel? panas tu punya pasal kan..;p p inda sampat jua ko kan bebata;( eun, u better stop looking pc yg sebalah kiri mu atu! ko typed atu pun, buat aku nangis wah..aku sdih wah eun,aku malar imagine ko jalan sorang2 p aku nada sbalahmu;'((( ani inda tah ku craving g yg u-know-what-we-crave-on-slalu ;p ko nada, ndatah ku craving g..eksen tu kalau dtanya masa kan lunch,sorang2 nda kan ngakun kali last2 nya, food yg sama jua;p u dun 4get aku ahhh...;'(walaupun aku nada, doesnt mean aku inda ingat ko...send my regards to ur mummy, gtau sorry if kdg2 aku bawako jalan n den teantar lambat sumtymes;')take care of urself girl...

I think i better stop here cos my tears inda mau stop flowing! i am too sedih to leave kamu;'(...but yup life must go on rite..? pray d best for me will u..?and yes kamu semua are always in my prayers...always...love kamuuuu:'((((

Current song : Vitamin C -- Friends Forever
and also currently looking at our picture slides ;'((((

;'(

2007-08-20T12:48:00.001+08:00

I am going to miss u guys....;'(

Love is in d air~

2007-08-17T21:26:00.000+08:00

At 4pm tadi, drove back to KB..Just didn't feel like to be at the hostel ;( so yep, packed some clothes, books and other stuff and zooommm!

Finally arrived at almost 6pm and called my mama's hp. hehe,asked what she was doing (yessss, i noe im outside arah garage, hehe saja bahhhhh) ;p she was cooking (ive purposely didnt tell her that i was going home, wanted to surprise her ;D) ive asked her to look outside...then she said "Ko d luar kahhh???" hehehehe and yessss, lit up KB tarus due to her wideeeeee smileeee:D:D sounds dramatic ey? it has been only like 5 days? we didnt jumpa, hehehe, i noe i noe :P:P

and yep as usual, ill eat first then showered then bla bla bla...

went online and read some blogs...ive almost forgotten to read this particular blog CintaisLove hehe;p some of u may heard it from Dj Jenny.. so..didnt expect to see him online and yep had a few chats with him. Thanks Zul for melayan-ing kekeke. U ppl shud read his blog and if you havent, just click on the Cinta is Love link,ayte? a real love story from a guy that I (and other readers, i believe) personally envy due to his patience in handling the whole heartbreaking events that are happening to him.

Daymmnnn! have to finish off my weekly progress report first then modop!!! have to wake up early tomorrow cos class starts at 8 am!waaaaaa!! Modop means Sleep zzzZZzzZzzz...

Night ppl!!

selamat menyambut hari isra' mikraj :)

2007-08-11T13:02:00.000+08:00

So..yep today is a public holiday...one day off on the VERY first week of the new semester hehehehehe..*smile*smile* but wait! have to work on the first week progress report for the final project!! to be handed in on Monday, yes! this coming monday..waaa! so i can rub off this stupid smile now and put on the sharp, frown face...*sigh*

Butttt......don't u agree that this whole weekly progress report thingy is actually a good thing? yes..no? Cos u see,it actually helps us to make our lazy bum bum to work...mun nda,last minute selalu ani bah, like most of us did in the previous semesters(like who...?)*walk towards the mirror, and who do i see kan??? nah, mun pham bisaiiii kekekeke..*

Met Dr M, my supervisor, last Thursday..need to know what he actually wanted to see in my project.a brief meeting but yet informative. FYI, this project was my second choice..i was a bit sad and frustrated when i found out that i didnt get my 1st choice;( cos I've already started my research over the holiday and had even started learning J2ME wahhh..cos it's on GPS tracking system on mobile device..oh well, my mistake jua sal too confident that i will be given my first choice...but hey, my second choice which is now officially my FINAL YEAR PROJECT is not too bad jua..It's on Designing a digital image watermarking utility

This project is something that I have never thought of. This utility is to provide a protection for the owner who owns an intellectual property that is in digital format. I'm sure that you've heard of celebrities whose pictures were editted into a somewhat porno pic and sent thru emails. Since they take pictures for commercial business, it is very important for them to protect their property by digitally watermarking their images. Meaning to say, digital image watermarking adds a layer of protection to their images by identifying the copyright ownership and delivering a tracking capability that monitors and reports where your images are being used or editted. This utility will definitely be a great help if they wanted to proof that they didnt pose nude on their pictures annndddd to find the culprit! belabih ah kan edit edit gambar urg,NAUGHTY! There are a lot of other examples but im lazy to elaborate more plg tu hehehe cos i noe u ppl faham jua tu kan from the simple example that i have given ;) at least u got the idea what i am working on for my project, nda ja?

bah enough tah eh, karang panjang panjang ja ku type plg.bored kamu karang hehehe..ill update u next time lah ah about this project. today baru the intro ja lu ok? sikit2 lah i give u..apa nya urg tua, Sikit sikit lama lama jadi bukit hahahaha! ok, i wanna go lunch first ah.BYE!

Major mini typhoon warning???????

2007-07-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

i was talking to the boyfren on the phone when suddenly at exactly 10.00 pm,ive received a msg from a friend....

Brunei storm warning: major mini typhoon approaching Brunei in 3-4 hrs fire dept on standby, so stay indoors...

i was panicking tadi but then one thing yang i wanna know is, is the typhoon gonna be major or mini saja?or there's gonna be banyak cute little mini typhoon..i know pulang typhoon is definitely not cuteeeee...i dont fancy typhoon okkkk?but ya,whatever it is,hopefully everything will be fine..and it was even announced on Kristal Fm so i guessed, this warning should be taken seriously..but whether it is true or not, only He knows right?Insyallah,nothing will happen...amin...

Current thoughts: Tawakal dan doa....

Regret.......

2007-07-19T15:26:00.000+08:00

I was randomly reading through some blogs and found two blogs. These blogs brought back memories.......:'( my dream when i was waaaayyyyyy back...and now ~~the feeling of regretness(adakah this kind of word?uuuffff,i dunno)~~ the feelings of regret thanks zat*winks* is haunting me...AGAIN....to both of them,you've done your part and there..god has answered ur prayers...d best of luck to both of u..

Wish i could turn back time...*sigh* Wish everything was 5 years back...but who am i to have the power of reversing the time kan.....?*sighhh*

Current thoughts: only god knows.....

i'm pissed off!! BR770 RED NISSAN SKYLINE, u wait!!!!!

2007-07-05T18:26:00.000+08:00

u can see dat i am in a very very very bad mood! and this is because of an idiot person that drives BR770 NISSAN SKYLINE!!!! ok lemme tell u wat happened..

i was picking up my bro from his extra class at 3pm and i parked at the side near to the student waiting area.and so my bro entered the car and ya as usual the long queue lah..so i put on the signal to go to the left lane and i knew after this particular car, i can slipped in cos dis NISSAN SKYLINE was far enough for me to do that.and as i was about to slipped in,guess wat???? dis stupid driver of NISSAN SKYLINE(yea,u notice kan balik2 ku menaip NISSAN SKYLINE,ah see im doing it again,emphasizing tah bnar ku udah tu) sped up and thank god i actually looked at the car mirror and braked!!! she is so damn stupiddddd!!!!yes a "SHE"!! wat if her front bumper decided to "kiss" my car??!!!! bnyak duit kahhhhh??

She has to stop because of the front queue.yes she stop next to my carrrrrrr...put on that fucking-bitchy-stupid look on her face and she even flipped her hair!yes flippeddd her hairrrr gahhhh!!!! napa?? wat? flipped ur hair so dat i can actually see the brand of ur gigantic-black glasses that almost cover ur face???hah?hah?paloiiiiiiiii!!! at least look at me and put that oops-sorry-i-accidentally-stepped-on-d-accelerator-instead-of-d-brake look!ani inda tpulangggg,my anger level apa lagiiii,shot up tia! she really triggered my anger mode wah!

she was really reallyyyyyyy messing up wif d wrong person! and wat did i do? i gave her the sharp look(au tajam bh tajam..) and gave her that middle finger. i dont care wat other ppl would say..she went front and her sister or whatever lah ah,yg confirmed ia bini2 sal ia makai tudung,baju kurung, kain...wattttt...? then sped up tia.nah napa?? afraid????????!! i sped up behind her tooooo ha! but i had to be cautious too at the same time.one piece of advice to u ppl out there if u wanna do the same thing,be cautious! though u are trying to scared the driver,be cautious! they might purposely step on the brake pedal and BAM!! you're a dead meat! u'll be accused of hitting their cars from behind.i dun think u want ur "rival" to smileeeeee.rite?? and back to the story..and yep went arah roundabout den she decided to increase her speedddd.au dihhhh,aku keta vios ko nissan skyline....soooo??? i was smiling wen she did that n u noe why? cos usually at 3-ish, there will always be traffic jam near to the roundabout.ha!! gotcha!! nah nah nah! she got stucked...AGAIN! ha! and her car lost control and almost hit the side of the road.malu malu malu!!! i wooed her from behind, i likeeee!!!! hahahaha! she looked at me thru her car mirror.wat? wat? o, you almost hit the stable? so? kekekeke. serve u rite lah bullshit! n i continued chasing her,boh boh boh! haha! n she signalled arah dis junction and woooweeeyyyy, she lived just a few blocks from me!! awas ko! BR770!! hate youuuu!!! and just before she went in,nah kauuu *MIDDLE FINGERRRR!!!* F*CK YOU BITCH!

if let's say she stopped me and asked why i did that?i wud say,y?buta ko udah kahhh? o ya! no wonder u cant see my car signalled tadi sal u r wearing those big black glasses! padantahhh! tecover tia biji mata mu atu,itam ganya ko nampak! (ndawah kamu, kali upanya matanya atu basar mcm fullstop ganya, dot...dot..and dat's it,kesian jua tu ahahahah). if she decides to slap me,ill slap u back! i just dont care! ok?!

i am so pissed off berabislyyyyy! i do drive fast ok i admit that frens! hehe,buttttt.......i do respect other drivers ok? i do give way to other ppl. wat is wrong wif giving way to other drivers kan? like the gurl driving BR770 ahhh. wat d hell is wrong wif u?? if i were to do the same thing like dat idiot girl(yes yg drive BR770 atuuu!), i wud feel really realllyyy guilty, seriouslyyy!! dont u ppl feel the same way?? well..except for dat gurlll, auuuu yg drive BR770 ahhhhh....=p u'll not lose anything if u give way to other ppl daripada u don't. nda pedah saja kana sumpahhhh! ndajaaaaaa? palui eh dat gurl, dlajukannya gtuuuu..sasakkkkk! my dad always say, "kalau kitani kurang ajar arah urg, kurang ajar urg lain balum lagi kitani tau"..and yesss i do agree wif him..yes babah! kekeke=p

so plssssss, it's ok to drive fast (hmm kali lah ah..) tapi d most important thing is RESPECT OTHER DRIVERS...i repeat...RESPECT RESPECT RESPECT! understand? fahamkah? HORMAT bah HORMAT! please lahhhh,dun act bitchy okkkkkk? flip flip hair lah palah, tarik rambut mu karanggg!

i better stop here or else this post would be full of swear words..and it's all because of that bitch driving RED NISSAN SKYLINE BR770 (here we go againn...) kekeke bah eh END!

Current thoughts: My mum's knife set in the kitchen...hmmm...and she's just a few blocks away...*evil squint*

umm..knock..knock..??hehehe

2006-11-15T12:31:00.000+08:00

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!gilaaaa,lama udah inda berupdate ah..kekeke sorry frens:)

i didnt update since july 14th,whoaaaa,AMAZINGGGGGGGG......;p

1st of all,selamat hariraya to all my frens in scotland, OG,idut,silah,hasrol,dir,limin & bra... maaf zahir batin..forgive me ok?*sob*sob* really missing u guys esp u 3 gals:'(..exam is just around d corner,mkin tia ku teringatkan kmu....nx week is d revision week n ill be staying in KB,mama nyuruh..nya 2 taun udah inda ia menjaga aku masa exam..bh dangartah ckap mama..ndaja?:) apart from that reason is because kmu nada...uwaaaaaa...

selalu baca u guys punya blogs...liat gambarsss...i wanna be there!!!kanapalah aku main2 belajar...uwaaaaaa...serve u rite lah tu hehehe..but hopefully ill pass ol my 7 subjcts 4 dis sem ah..horror bnar dis sem without u guys..not d same class like kitani b4...da problema..mcm2 ah...new ppl new karenahhh...hmmmmmmmm...u guys are still d best, no doubt bout dat:))))

sebenarnya rite researching for legal cases againt SUN for Jaidi punya assignment,to be handed in on d 18th which is dis sat!!!!im teaming up wif eun,zat n yas...hehehe kami buat sal SUN.d others ada yg buat about IBM, Windows sama emmmmm na tauuuu hehehe...

bah i ciao 1st ah..update bila...?wallahuawa'lam bissawab hehehe nsyallah soon ahh hehe...assalamualaikum bye..MISS U SCOTLAND FRENS p drg ani urg brunei plg msani drg d scotland mlanjutkan plajaran...jgn kmu salah paham eh hahahaha pakannnnn?bah bye;p

batahhhhh udahhh hehe

2006-07-15T11:35:00.000+08:00

seriously ppl....aku yg pling batah nda blogging ani usulnya..last sekali pun in march..atu baik jgn beblog usulnya hehehe

jus finished my supp last thurs...finallyyyyyyy....."cutie pie" punya ppr was ok(teheee:P)but my java ppr,ndaku sure wahhh..i juz dunno bah...i did answer d 3 questions but i wasnt really sure if my answers were....acceptable..?tawakal ja lah..hopfully ill pass both my supp pprs..amin...

venus about d wyg thingy..cana?which saturday tah tu?i seriously wanna go..y?cos it's d pirate of the carribeans!!moreover,Johnny Depp's in there!!! I so wanna go!!!makkkkkk,aku mau liattttt tapi inda berani kn tanya hehe. Have to kumpul all my courage n go to my mum n ask..."mak.....atu bah mak eh..aaaaa...kn tnya bah...atuuuu....(shish,pyh jua eh)...bleh kah....

Mamaku:"apa yg bleh ani...?"
Me:"atu bah....aku kan liat..............
Mamaku:liat pa??(kira annoyed psal batah anak daranya sorang ani kan membritau hajatnya)
Me:"liat tV!!!"(surrender :s)
Mamaku:astahhhhhh...

hahahahaha...just a bit of imagination keke..p dats wat i always do plg if i wanna go sumwhere kah..o apakah...hehe..pnakut bnar!!:s

p saturday...?pyh jua f sats...but liat lah..myb i can go..kali lahh

eh b4 i 4got..happy 60th bday to His Majesty!!! im watching d "penganugerahan" ceremony plg ni but arah tv ja ehehhee..

nuthin much to say plg lagi so i guess dats it 4 today....?

insyallah ill blog again k?

haPPY!!!!!

2006-03-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

woke up as usual..

den bla bla bla

got a msg hehe..bah apa g...jumpa **** tehehee...my mum asked me "kan kmana?" hmmm,jalan2 sama kwanku..kekeke..jadinya...i dun tink ill be here typing dis if i were to tell d truth!hmmm anywayss..some of u pun noe rite yg i cant easily go out just like dat so i have to make up a reason..hehe acceptable rite?bulihlahhh hehe

so go to kadai n bought some stuff..kali..pa nah?! my cuzn!Fudge!!mau na mau i have to n greet her..den she asked "ko jalan sama syapa?" hmm dngan muka yg innocent.."sorang"..kekeke..C **** eksen baca majalah n read it.but behind the mag,gagar2 ketawa ani wahh..auuuu wat to do?ketawa jaaa sanaaa..p cali jua..haha..den jaln jalan.........heehee..siukkkkk...miss uuuuuu...uwaaaaa...saja bah exaggerating..kekeke

den balikk..adang2 jua bejalan..

pas tuu.....antar my bro tuition den picked him up @8.30pm

watched M3..bigfoot...hmmm..whether they really exist o not..wallahua'lam..kali i wondered jua wat if im one of their grand-grand daughters??au wahh,manaku cicit bigfoot tuuu hehe...adang2 imagine aniii..

bsk we go to MIRI!!pa g..SHOPPING!!!woohoooooo!!
k bye ppl!

what...to do?hmmm

2006-03-04T11:03:00.000+08:00

yesterday afternoon while i was in my room,my cuzn barged in ani bahh!gila!tkajut ku dang!!hehe..ia keboringan so she bring me out..nda tau kmana kan dituju aniii..yea we went jalan2 arah kb shops n den went to seria...ada small bazaar at the plaza..nuthing much juaa..den pa nah kami buat??hehehe..mliat urg "berulah" d pantai belakang OGDC n arah taman jubilee d anduki kahkahkahkah...n yes we saw quite...ummm..an interesting...pakannnnnnn...kekekeke better keep it to myself ja:P

pas tu,like wat green gal always say..membaboying.hehe..d fresh cafe lumut..my first tyme there..n had bandung float + lemon chicken rice..eyy,not bad jua..wanna go lagi next tyme..nyumm:)

den by 7 brutah mulih krumahh...kengalihannn :D pas tuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.........................

liat tv.....

hmmmm...

ummm......

ooooooooooooooooooo.........

aaaaaaa.......

eh lain ja bunyinya..kahkahkah..actuallynya mcm i dun talk much bah pas tuu..

den..zzZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZ...did i snore kah last nyte?hmm ntah ahh..pduli ku hahaha

k CIAO!!

hmmm...just another day...

2006-03-03T11:22:00.000+08:00

forgot to post yesterday's stuff ah..

well nuthing much...sent n picked my brother from school
bla...........bla.........bla.........

do some stuff..english..more research..

yea...my pong!!makkkkk,nda batah g ni kan presentation!S***!QA session scares me d most peeps!bah nanti kitani bagi at least, ok comments for each other ahh..hehhe

oh ya..lupaku post this pic hehe..guyss....atu baru minta2 kana langgar keta keke..dun worry peeps..kahkahkah..tluan nda logic bah gambar ani..look..c mmind g smiled..auwahhh mati dlm iman lah tuu..:P and green wanderer...best pose..hehe..d others..giLaGuY,HwaO n Mr L hehe..crowded bnar dapan keta...but anyways...u ROCK!!kekekeke

den mlm nya we family dine out..sal celeb my parent's 29th wedding annversary..congrats mama n babah:) lap u!hehe
k krg g sambung k..OUT!

L.O...L.O..L.O..L.O....V.E!! Reference: Ashlee feat Missy E...hehe

2006-03-01T19:11:00.000+08:00

hmmm..as usual..woke up at around 8..awalll..uarghhh!ngantukzz masih eh..were asked to accompany my parents to d kadai..ya,well,y not..

went to kadai n my mum bought clothes and a pair of slippers...me??NIL~~hehe..dun feel like buying anything..bought groceries..bla..bla..bla....den...walaaww eh!!i met my ex classmate!!he was in my class from Form 1-3 den we were in separate classes..n guess wat?he got a son olready!!how sweet!!cute anaknya mcm bapanya..ehem..ehem..hubby urg tu jgn lupa keke..bininya pun lawaaa..woooo...d ting dat awez remind me of him is he always called me "lapik meja berjalan" or in english,"walking table cloth" ngamkah??correct me if im wrong peeps hehe..y he called me dat?cos i was a prefect n prefects have to wear a different uniform n for girls, we had to wear mcm picnic table punya table cloth..yess..seriously...menyampah ku!!n dats one of the reasons y i gave up being a prefect..haha just becos of the kain..hmmmm

n den went home pas tu help my mom cooked hehe rajin kali ahh:P den lunch n acap..yea!!!uve finished ur progress test!!wohooo hehe..dapat relax ckit ahh..hehe..jadikan liat wayg sama kaka ani?hehe...

and by in the afternoon i feel so damn bored!!gila boring bnar yo!den ive asked my eldest bro pakan dbuat?den he said just cruise around kah..o..ko jumpa syapakah..(with a capi2 smile on his face)hehe!n click!!baik ku jumpa *** hehe...rinduku ehhhh..keke..den my mum tanya..kan kmana ko?hmmm...jalan...TTR ku ulihnya..n my bro start to make faces n smile like a MORON haha..sorry bro..keke

den met *** @ seria den jalan2 keke..happy nyeee!hmmmm miss youuuuu :) wanna c u more,atu gatal bini2nya hehe..biarkan tiaa..:P

den selajur ambil my bro from skulah ugama..

went home
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send my bro to tuition
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watching PHSM 2 msani..scary lah maya karin ani!Shish!!bah k peeps!!

byeeeee

BowiNKK~~~~~~:(

2006-02-27T21:20:00.000+08:00

ewooo!!

fuhhh..such a boring day today!! Is today the World's Boring Day? Bilakan actuallynya Boring Day ani? Da celebration kah for it? what am i babbling bout?!!antammmmm...namanya....boringggg kekeke

ok,wake up dis morning n helped my mom to do houseworkk..yaa,semester break is for me to do housework..OOooooo!!Suka ku..sangat2(im being sarcastic here:P) n oh ya big bro..im not gonna be ur slave for this holi..udang atu bsok sendirimu membuati..lalalalala..sendirimu mengunting janggutnya..udang got janggut mei?well watever..hmmmm..hehe

i send my lil bro to school..volunteer kali ah 2 antar my bro..bukan tunjuk rajin but just to fill up my time for the day..den do some research on english presentation..bah idut!! don 4get bout our presentation gurl!(",)

pas tu dis evening antar n ambik my lil bro from tuition..yes ppl...jadi driver hehe..hmm..basically dats wat i did for today..driving...*GROANS*

bah i wanna watch BERSAMAMU @ TV3..hmm....gonna cry over this programme..guarantee..uwaaaaaaa...

k OUT!!

hello WORLD!!! hehe

2006-02-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

OMG!! ok ppl, this is my first blog!! My baby!!!apakannnnzzz kekeke...exagerrating bnar jua hehe...

hmmm,y i created this blog??cos kmu smua da blog,aku mau juaaaa hehe..all this while ive been reading ur blogs n mau jua u ppl to read mine n give comments(*hinting*so dat at least ada bercomment my blog ani hehe)

im so damn bored today...went shopping wif my parents dis afternoon while waiting for my lil bro who had his OGDC Science competition..well his team lost..kesiannn..hicks..hicks..kekeke..ive asked him what they had done during the competition...hmm,they were asked to build a bridge using matches n newpapers..??n they r given 30 minuntes to build one..well obviously u have to be creative,not only creative but scientifically creative hehe..nda pedah mun robohh..malu sekolah haha..but my brother said they manage to build one..then one of the judges wanted to check the strength of their bridge by putting a SEHAT bottle on it....for the first few seconds...maintainnnnn...then...*creak*..*creak*...mmm bahhhh COLLAPSE!!! haha..ya..thanks to the judge ahhh...bisaiiiii..my bro mentioned about making a national day parade's t-shirt out of newspapers..suka bnar drg pkai newspaper..walaupun kan recycle...hehe..so his team created a sort-of gladiator punya costume..antamtah drg..n after 30 min,a representative from each team was chosen to wear the "t-shirt" n do the catwalk!!kahkahkahkah...mati2 my bro nda mau pakai..atu pemaluuu haha..so another person did it 4 him..poor guy..heeeee

hmmm one of the winning schools who manage to go to the semifinal is ...yess..PJN...hmmm green wanderer suka ni hehe..butttt...not to 4get my ex-school SMPW is also in!!!WooHOOOOO!!hehe..iatah bah..watever..:P

talked to Duol Ulu thru yahoo..he played the guitar yooo hahaha landir bunyinya ku dangar..mic nya tu kali rusak haha n he tested me on a song..tanya aku balik2 wat was the word the singer repeatedly cakap....n it was "AVE MARIAAAAAAA" mmm bahhhh manasajatah ko hahaha

astah wat d heck!pa kann..shishhh..my bro ani suddenly barged into my room n start to say sumting bout the bridge..again!!he said sumting about 4getting to make use of the matchboxes to support the bridge..okkkkk..fyne..the competition is over bro!!WAKE UP!!!keke..but inda sampai ati kan cakap catu arah ia..so ckap arah blog ani saja..hehehe...jgn marah peeps:P

bah to be continued...HASTA LA VISTA!!MY FIRST BLOG WAHH!! hehehe