Betrayed.......X_X

hermmmmmmm..yes!betrayed!!!

it's just that i really realllyyy dont understand how could someone with such a highhhh position can even think of doing such thing???

kamu tau right about my urmmm u knowww..ok exactly 1 week ago, i have passed an appeal letter to the VC through the D. (i dont want to mention d full name lah ahhh, i think you know what i mean). so i was told that the result would be out in 2 days time and ya after two days i called to the admission and the admission said that they were not INFORMED about me..and they passed me to the Examination Section and i have to ask them the same thing and yep they said that they too were not informed to call me or anything..i said to my self, well okkk, be patient be patient,maybe i should give them a call on Saturday, so as to give them enough SPACE and TIME to sort this thing out. btw, mind you that i have to call MANYYY MANYYYYY times till they picked up the b*oo*y phone! u should consider yourself LUCKY if u manage to talk to them after a few rings *roll eyes*

and sooo, yessss, i called them again on saturday. and stilllll~~not luckyyyy~~i mean this time, very not the luckyyyy okk~ the admission people didnt even bother to pick up the phone and they even have the heart to make the line busy! i knew they purposely did that cos it was ringing at first then busy.apatah tuuuu?? macam sampai hati juaaaa~~so i tried calling the FOS admin. atu baru ku puji nahh~ after a few rings, tarus angkat*THUMBS UP* this wasnt my first time calling them. setiap kali call, msti drg angkat after a few rings. mun durang atuuuu~~*jaling2 keatas* alum lagi tah mengangkat~~sorry laaaa~~

back to the alkisah~~even the F admin pun inda tau what was the outcome of my appeal letter cos they didnt receive anything from the admission nor the examination section;( i feel sooo neglected~~;( mcam did they really antar my appeal letter to the VC?? they asked whether i have called the admission and i said that they didnt even bother to pick up the phone bah~ she was like "hmm,andangnya durang atu,andang pyah sdikit.." see! since inda puas hati, i immediately called Ms R and asked for her help, like how am i supposed to know the result of my appeal. she offered to call the admission and the examination section (thank youuuu:)) since she's one of the lecturers, maybe..just maybe..she can kurik some information on my appeal ani. then she told me that she managed to call the admission ppl(like, at lassttttt!)tapinya masih lagi they didnt know about my appeal atu,no one informed them or anything! WHATTTT????? then Ms R called (mcm bnyak jua pasal call mengcall aniii~~shisshhh)the AR to ask about the procedure. SURPRISINGLY~~ia nda tau about my appeal letter..hmmmm..mcm INDA IA TAUUU sal NADA URG INFORM IA~~au wahhh so where the he** is my appeal letter kan?? she said that normally, the letter will go through her first before tampat lain*jaling2 lagi keatas* so it seems like the DD mcm inda forward my letter tah tu kan usulnya~~*btw 2 kamu yg kan ingin tau pa makna di sebalik letters yg ku buat atu,tanya ja ah* how could he do that?? tapi i cant confirmed yg he really didnt forward my letter right~~?

and so todayy, my mama and me went to see the AR to let her know my situation. ive printed a new letter lagi, now for the Examination Section cc AR. we've waited for like 10 min then she came. so went in and baru explained to her about my situation and she asked me to whom did i give the letter to last week? i told her it was the DD and DrJ had even signed the letter to mention that he has no objection for me to appeal. she asked for the copy of the letter and nasibbb~ i was smart enough (hehehe,kambangg~) to re-print a copy of the letter but unfortunately without DrJ's recommendation..:(like how am i supposed to make a copy since he signed it and the DD tarus take it..? but at least~~it shows my effort by re-printing it~~

then~~macam tuhan atu kali kan mliat kan arah kami kali bah ah~the DD went in~macam surprised jua ia to see us in the room.then the AR asked him about my letter like did he forward it kah..and u kNOW WHAT??? he was reallllyyyyyyyyy panickinggggg and started to blab things which were realyyyyy realllyyyy~~~ irrelevant!banar! try ask my mama if you dont believe me, she was with me in the room. you can actually see if a person atu reallly feels guilty kann~ his eyes showed everythanggggg~~~ i was really angry at that time. i feel betrayed~ btrayed by someone whom i respected and trusted all this while;( how could he..?:"( he pretended like he didnt remember receiving my letter, like helloo!!! it was just a week agooo! i dont think they receive tons of appeal letters in a week! pas tu ingat tia nya! whatt??? he was asking so manyy irrelevant question to me~~mcam adakah patut ia tanya aku "pernah sudah ko buat physics maybe in your first year kah pakah~~?" apa?????? macam ummm nooo >_< inside i was like, hello!!aku buat CS kali ahh!n my minor was uummm...maths..??so...bhapa ku sibuk2 belajar physics....????*slaps forehead* macam inda tantu cakapnya! and he even mentioned sal i should transferred to BSc Ed majoring in maths and minor CS! *adakah such program offered?ed?maths and cs?*blink blink* the AR tarus ckap adakan tu ..?? astahhhhhhh!napakan tu kamu??*slaps forehead hard*arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! and one more thing ah i am not even eligible to transfer to any other program...*baca letter before cakap pa2 sal transferring*

and yadayadayadaaaa~~the AR told me that she'll contact me on anything. she told me the chance of getting back to continue my course is very slimmm~~but inda pa2 lah,berserah arah tuhan,if rezeki ku dsini alhamdulillah~~tapi if inda, trima ja~~;( i have done my part, i dont wanna leave the place just like that as if i like being terminated. i wanna fight for a place in there..but if such effort pun tapi kalau ada urang yg block your effort...macamana..? again..i leave the matters to Allah~~

after the meeting, i went to the examination section to request a copy of my results' transcript..just preparing saja..they told me i have to make the payment *au we have to pay $5 for the transcript* arah finance. and due to the convo thingy they have moved the finance counter temporarily to the hall so as to ease the graduates to make payment and collect their gowns..just for $5, i have to walk to the hall! kpisan eh! but what to do, bersusah2 ja lu bersenang2 kemudian*esehhh!phewittt!* then went back to the Examination section minta print..at the same time, the graduates pun ada to collect their results kah pakah..*sighhh*knapalah dugaan ku kali ani barat banar..?;'( they were going around bringing their gown and complaining to each other about how barat the gowns were..ada tia this lady told her friend "ko pindik atu kali iatah ko keberatan!mayb gravity pull kali wah!"and they laughed. i was smiling jua ada kah sibuk2 kan cakap sal gravity pull tyme2 cmatu,shishh some people ;p siuk ah, they were so happy cos they are going to graduate on the 11th and here i am, asking for the transcript not because i finished my studies but because i was terminated...;'( mannnnn, it was so hard for me to stand tadi looking at them so happy but aku...?*heads up and jalan*

and at exactly 4.01 pm, the AR called me..she has discussed with the D and advised me to change to another program cos no matter what i am not allowed to go back to CS..i will still need to write another appeal letter if i want to transfer..kamu, im tired..i dont think i can do this anymore~~changing to a new course and start from the beginning..? i'm gonna give Ms R a call and ask for her advice...i want kamu punya opinion as well ah~ wat u think i should do~ help me..ok?

till then....see kamu..*wave wave*